I had just hit my 40's and frankly Life had gone completely sideways. Dreams shattered; heart broken; fear and chaos prevailed. There were no answers. I didn't know where to turn to next let alone heal myself, Ironically it was the need to find a new way to support myself that led me to the start of the journey to self-discovery.
A friend told me that they could get me a job bartending at a small tavern nearby if I could learn how to "tend bar". So I signed up for a fast and furious course quite a distance from where I lived in a city unfamiliar to me. As I had arrived at the general location early that first day (I didn't want to risk getting lost) I had time to look around the neighborhood.
I was inexplicably drawn to East-West Bookstore, its serene exterior* appeared comforting to me upon first site. So I parked my car and walked to the entrance. The smell of sandalwood wafted out to me in the parking lot; soothing music beckoned me inside; the soft trinkling of water enveloped me with a feeling of peace. I browsed the aisles slowly, taking it All in before heading to the book shelves. Though there were many self-help books that may have been more predictable, I left that day with a book on the Goddess. It was the beginning of my transformation though I didn't realize it then.
*East-West moved to their Castro Street location after I had discovered it in the mid-90s
Daily Affirmations: The image of the Goddess inspires us to see ourselves as divine, our bodies as sacred, the changing phases of our lives as holy, our aggression as healthy, and our anger as purifying. Through the Goddess, we can discover our strength, enlighten our minds, own our bodies, and celebrate our emotions. I surround myself with small figures, artwork, beads and statues depicting the Goddess Form. Every time my eyes light on one it reminds me to love myself. Better yet, when you look in the mirror truly SEE the Goddess standing there. She's a wonderous and powerful being.